I Surrender
I’m done with this processing business.
I’m done rehashing and reliving all the stuff that is now in the past.
I’m talking childhood crap, parental BS, unworthiness, not good enough-ness, low self-esteem nonsense, all of it. I’m done.
Love
Lessons in Pain
It’s amazing what loss of movement can teach you. For me, gratitude for small things like turning over, standing up, and going to the bathroom. Learning to surrender and let go.
Magic: Day 14 of 31
The magic of a cup of tea.
We haven’t quite mastered the art of ease and grace when it comes to visiting family and friends.
Often we blow through town like a hurricane seeing one person for a few hours and then off to the next location.
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Magic Days 12-13 of 31: The Magic of Family
The magic of family.
We have been traveling this last week visiting family.
Visiting my family hasn’t always been easy.
Adolescence can be difficult for both teenager and parent. And if you’re not careful that stuff can easily carry into adulthood.
For me some of it did. As a child from a divorced family, a blended family, and young parents, I often resented the fact that I didn’t have the picture perfect upbringing.
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The Magical Float: Magic Day 11 of 31
The magical float.
I swam today for the first time in a long time.
Being overweight most of my life I had forgotten the feeling of weightlessness.
In meditating on weightlessness I think about all of the heaviness I carry in my life.
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31 Days of Magic: Day 10 of 31
My beautiful friend Galia shared this amazing poem yesterday.
I was so moved by it, that I wanted to share it here as part of these 31 Days of Magic.
This poem resonated deeply with me as I continue to learn to listen and honor my own body’s wisdom.
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What is an Altar? Magic Day 4 of 31
What is an altar?
For me, it is a place where I keep items that have special significance or are important for me to honor in some way. My altar is where I go, when I need to be reminded of who I really am. When I need to be reminded that I am loved. Every piece on or around my altar, my sacred space, carries with it a story of love.
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Magic Day 2 of 31: Magic Rituals
And that’s the thing about creating magic with ritual. There are two parts. The first is the creation of magic (or magical energy) through ritual, and second is the magic being received by another in the form of messages, signs, or energy. My hope is that when she reads the messages intended for her, it will feel magical.
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Magic of the Universe: Day 1 of 31
Magic Day 1 of 31: A complete 180 from how I was feeling a little over an hour before. With gratitude my fears melted away almost instantly. It happened so quickly, it had to be magic.
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31 Days of Magic
I have this urge to welcome and create magic in my life.
I’m not sure how it will come about, or what format it will be in, but I know that I want to write about it.
Letting Love In
Big revelations tonight. First, I have the most amazing people in my life. People who hold sacred space for me to process my emotions, my challenging thoughts, fears, and dreams. People who stand as a witness to my becoming.
Facing Fear of Death
I’m not afraid of what happens after I die. I believe in reincarnation, and that I have already been reborn several times. It’s the physical part of the death that scares me. The decay of the body, the shutting down of the brain, the lungs no longer breathing. It is so… final.
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Emotional Shifting
I’ve been going through a lot of shifting lately.
Emotionally.
Physically.
Mentally.
Some of the shifts have been easy. Fun.
Others have been hard. Painful.
Many have to do with how I view myself.
The shift from hating my body to just accepting it as it is. Hard.
The shift from accepting my body to loving my body. Painful.
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Breathe Deep
How often do you stop and just take a deep breath? If you’re like me, you probably don’t think about breathing very often. Thankfully, it’s one of those necessary life-sustaining actions that our body does automatically. Without breathing, we’d die.
Transitions: My 26th Birthday
20 minutes before the clock strikes 12, I read the post I wrote exactly one year ago.
I feel a sense of calm and peace with where I am today from where I was then and I’m pleasantly surprised by how much of what I wrote actually manifested.
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You are Beautiful!
Thank you to my dear friend for this wonderful reminder:
“It doesn’t make sense to call ourselves ugly, because we don’t really see ourselves.
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I’m in Recovery: Emotional Recovery
When I hear the word recovery, I usually think of people who are recovering from massive surgery or some kind of harmful addiction. The commonality between them is that the body requires some time of rest in order to fully heal from the physical trauma that has been inflicted.
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Lessons in Gratitude
Mom, you were right.
I was raised in the Tenrikyo Church and one of the cornerstones of the teachings is gratitude. We are encouraged to express gratitude for our bodies, and to practice tanno or joyous acceptance for our experiences – good or bad.
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Practicing Love
While in college I was a very involved activist. Which means that I consistently caught myself thinking, “this is so obvious, why aren’t more people up in arms about (x)? Why aren’t the people I know more passionate about this problem like me?”
Budgeting Kindness
I’ve always been really inspired by small acts of kindness and pay-it-forward attitudes. I have an unshakable belief that we (everyone) are all connected and that it is in our best interest to help, encourage, and support each other. Life is not a zero-sum game. Like Kid President says, I’m on your team. We’re all on the same team.
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Out of Darkness: Losing Control
A few of days ago, I was feeling very depressed. It started out with paranoia and then a sharp paralyzing fear. Life was feeling like a chaotic roller coaster, and I was definitely not in control. The combination of guilt and fear, felt like a vice-grip around my chest. My inner light was diminishing.
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