I Surrender
I’m done with this processing business.
I’m done rehashing and reliving all the stuff that is now in the past.
I’m talking childhood crap, parental BS, unworthiness, not good enough-ness, low self-esteem nonsense, all of it. I’m done.
What if Christmas is Painful?
Like most people there are things that I love about the holiday season, like good food and good company.
But there are also things that are hard about the holiday season that make me want to curl up in a ball and hibernate until it’s all over.
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The Unseen Wounds of Poverty
When we talk about poverty we usually think of people lacking money.
But there many ways to be poor.
You can be financially poor – lack of money.
You can be emotionally poor – lack of love, lack of emotional support, lack of emotional safety.
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Nelson Mandela – May He Rest In Love
I sent a prayer of gratitude to the Universe. Gratitude that Mandela lived. May his life and writings serve as a reminder that love and peace are possible, first within us, and then around us.
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How And Why You Should Treat Your Life Like A Business
How And Why You Should Treat Your Life Like A Business: having a successful life is similar to having a successful business.
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Pain is a Wakeup Call
Some wise people like to say that ‘pain is a wake up call’. Physical pain tell us that something is not right. Pain is just the symptom of a bigger problem.
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Lessons in Pain
It’s amazing what loss of movement can teach you. For me, gratitude for small things like turning over, standing up, and going to the bathroom. Learning to surrender and let go.
Positive Thinking Does Not Pay the Bills
Positive thinking does not pay the bills. I am currently unemployed. I suddenly have a lot of time on my hands. As well as a really screwy sleep schedule.
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All Hail the Pumpkin King!
All hail the pumpkin king! Last night my friend and I went to see “Danny Elfman’s Music From the Films of Tim Burton” at the Nokia Theatre in Los Angeles. I’m not a HUGE fan of Elfman or Burton, but the iconic films like Corpse Bride, The Nightmare Before Christmas, and Big Fish, are certainly in my top ten.
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What to Do When There Is No Sign of Magic
Oh my I had some lofty and ambitious goals for this series of magical blog posts. I started this process with the belief that if you look for something, you’re sure to find it.
Well, I looked and I found it.
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Walking Into Shadow
Walking into Shadow: Facing the shadowy parts of your life is hard. Especially if you’re like me and tend to close doors on painful feelings.
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Magic: Day 21 of 31
The magic of silence.
I am so grateful for silence.
When I can get it.
Here in this quiet space,
I let the thoughts trickle in.
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Magic: Day 14 of 31
The magic of a cup of tea.
We haven’t quite mastered the art of ease and grace when it comes to visiting family and friends.
Often we blow through town like a hurricane seeing one person for a few hours and then off to the next location.
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Magic Days 12-13 of 31: The Magic of Family
The magic of family.
We have been traveling this last week visiting family.
Visiting my family hasn’t always been easy.
Adolescence can be difficult for both teenager and parent. And if you’re not careful that stuff can easily carry into adulthood.
For me some of it did. As a child from a divorced family, a blended family, and young parents, I often resented the fact that I didn’t have the picture perfect upbringing.
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The Magical Float: Magic Day 11 of 31
The magical float.
I swam today for the first time in a long time.
Being overweight most of my life I had forgotten the feeling of weightlessness.
In meditating on weightlessness I think about all of the heaviness I carry in my life.
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31 Days of Magic: Day 10 of 31
My beautiful friend Galia shared this amazing poem yesterday.
I was so moved by it, that I wanted to share it here as part of these 31 Days of Magic.
This poem resonated deeply with me as I continue to learn to listen and honor my own body’s wisdom.
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The Magical Tent
The Magical tent.
Yesterday as my honey and I were driving over to my sister’s for a visit, he said:
I wish we were camping.
Later that night as we were discussing sleeping arrangements, my sister told us about this awesome tent she has.
And like magic, we were camping in her living room.
Magic Moment: Day 8 of 31
I arrived for my appointment at 9am. We weren’t sure how much work needed to be done yet but I was told that all of the morning appointments were magically cancelled!
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The Meaning of Raven : Magic Day 7 of 31
Magical confirmation.
Today, I spotted three ravens.
One right after the other.
I pulled out the Animal Speak book to read the meaning of raven.
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Magic Day 3 of 31: Favorite Fantasy Stories
I struggled a lot with what to write about today. I was lying down, starting to get sleepy when it popped into my head! Here’s a list of some of my favorite fantasy/ magical stories and characters.
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What is an Altar? Magic Day 4 of 31
What is an altar?
For me, it is a place where I keep items that have special significance or are important for me to honor in some way. My altar is where I go, when I need to be reminded of who I really am. When I need to be reminded that I am loved. Every piece on or around my altar, my sacred space, carries with it a story of love.
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Magic Day 2 of 31: Magic Rituals
And that’s the thing about creating magic with ritual. There are two parts. The first is the creation of magic (or magical energy) through ritual, and second is the magic being received by another in the form of messages, signs, or energy. My hope is that when she reads the messages intended for her, it will feel magical.
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Super Green Protein Smoothie Recipe
This is my favorite smoothie recipe! So creamy and flavorful. I feel really good knowing that the Plant Fusion protein is vegan, and gluten free. The flaxseed is great too because it’s filled with Omega-3 fatty acids, fiber, and lignans, which apparently is a plant estrogen and an antioxidant!
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Magic of the Universe: Day 1 of 31
Magic Day 1 of 31: A complete 180 from how I was feeling a little over an hour before. With gratitude my fears melted away almost instantly. It happened so quickly, it had to be magic.
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31 Days of Magic
I have this urge to welcome and create magic in my life.
I’m not sure how it will come about, or what format it will be in, but I know that I want to write about it.
Letting Love In
Big revelations tonight. First, I have the most amazing people in my life. People who hold sacred space for me to process my emotions, my challenging thoughts, fears, and dreams. People who stand as a witness to my becoming.
Facing Fear of Death
I’m not afraid of what happens after I die. I believe in reincarnation, and that I have already been reborn several times. It’s the physical part of the death that scares me. The decay of the body, the shutting down of the brain, the lungs no longer breathing. It is so… final.
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Spiritual Growth and Blogging
If it’s not totally clear yet, I’m in spiritual/emotional growth part of my life right now. I’ve been attempting to keep this space very… clean? optimistic? Not sure what word to use here. All I know is that I have been struggling to find my public “voice”.
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Emotional Shifting
I’ve been going through a lot of shifting lately.
Emotionally.
Physically.
Mentally.
Some of the shifts have been easy. Fun.
Others have been hard. Painful.
Many have to do with how I view myself.
The shift from hating my body to just accepting it as it is. Hard.
The shift from accepting my body to loving my body. Painful.
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Breathe Deep
How often do you stop and just take a deep breath? If you’re like me, you probably don’t think about breathing very often. Thankfully, it’s one of those necessary life-sustaining actions that our body does automatically. Without breathing, we’d die.